Winded

" The fast have spiritually slow hearts."


" 'Where ever you are be all there', is only possible in the posture of Eucharisteo. I want to slow down and taste life, give thanks, and see God." -A Thousand Gifts, Ann Voskam


Maria Taylor Plays as my thoughts flow, ignited by words...


My rushed heart forgets to be thankful. This is true loosing sight of where I am meant to be. Where God has us and why. Why we are in these seasons and seeking and being in the beauty while we are actually there. Instead of looking back upon it. Or looking forward to it.


I'll mention it again, "Where ever you are be all there". Slow down and let it in. Put the pen and paper down instead of letting the ink smere on your nose while studying and focusing on what still needs to be done. What still needs to be checked off.


If God wills it.
Plans...If God wills it.
Relationships... If God wills it.
Destinations... If God wills it.


But God is willing what we are currently in. This moment IS Gods will. While my attitude often twists it in my mind. Constant guessing games. Be all here. Know God now. Not long to know God tomorrow. Know Him now. Today is the opportunity.


 Right now I've realized more than ever how thankful I am for today. For waking up rested, excited to write and read Gods words, interpreting it to how I currently see it.


139
7 Where can I go from your spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?


I feel at times I personally become distracted. But He never leaves us. What if we want to be tested? What if we seek hardships to stay humble? Can that really work?


139:23-24
23 Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious heart;
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.


Kick back to Verse 5


5 You hem in behind and before, 
and you lay your hand upon me.


What blessings come from these things. These hard things that teach us so much. It is all on your watch. It is all that you understand and us wishing we did, Lord.


6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.


This is amazing. This might sound crazy, but even the worst things, the hardest most uncomfortable hardships are indeed amazing... But now as I write that, are they? I mean if God wills it, it must be, right?


Praise God. These words are amazing and way out there when it comes to anything in the social norm. God keeps providing and this is me writing reminders to help that joy to soak in and drool upon others. The greatness and glory belongs entirely to God.


Go ahead and read it again...

Some of the thousands...

A Great Blue Herron in the creek as the delicate rain falls in early morning hours.

Singing songs about trees while waiting with family.

Kids laughing.

Warm feet under a sleeping bag.

An email from a dear colleague.

Today.

These possibilities are endless and exciting. I don't even know to what I am referring these choices to. Life I guess. These transitions.

I enjoy the unorganized thoughts that go from my head, down my arm making a transfer to ink and then traced on paper. The perfect cure. A formula that has so many different ingredients, so many different remedies. To write is to explore. To explore is to take chances. To take chances is to trust. And to trust is to know that this is a real situation. This is raw and loud. Even though sometimes it whispers. We whisper honest things about ourselves wondering if anyone else can hear these thoughts because they echo in our heads.

Too loudly sometimes, reverberation, breaking down walls to truths and weaknesses. How many times have I had a D.T.R. with myself? Level of commitment to being honest? What about it? Is it real? If I'm being honest, it's hard to be honest. But here is the first step to being freed... Be honest.

Hebrews 4:7
"So God set another time for entering rest, and that time is today. God announced this through David much later in the words already quoted- 'Today when you hear his voice, don't harden your hearts'."

We struggle to keep focus... True focus forgetting these things.

Job 8:7
"And though you started with little, you will end with much".

Be encouraged...
"Do hard things"
Face the worst...Even if, at times, it might be ourselves.