When I was little I can recall on my 7th Birthday running up to my room crying. My Mom came in and asked me what was wrong and I explained that I didn't want to grow up. I didn't want to turn 7. She smiled at me and She told me these words that stick with in my brain upon everything it touches. With in my work, with in my walk and within the reminders I give to students on a daily basis. "You don't have to grow up, but you have to turn 7".
There are many times that from these unknowns in my life I feel like a failure. I feel like I should have it all together with a 401k and a retirement plan to get underway of what I really want to do when I grow up and finally have the money and time to be able to commit to doing something with the time that I'm not working trying to make these physical ends meet. The truth is that is I waited, I would not be physically able to to do the things I want to do. Even now being 27 I can certainly say that I'm tired. But I'm sure whom ever might be older reading this can argue that I haven't truly seen tired yet. While others could say that it isn't good to be exhausted but I am. So what? If there is any goal to have it is to completely exhaust myself through out my life by serving so that The Lord may rejuvenate
me creating the need and dependence to depend solely upon Him and Him alone to give me that rest and strength that I need. The other goal is to love to the best of my ability.
If I haven't already mentioned this, I've been reading a book called Love Does by Bob Goff. Check it out!
In the introduction another amazing Author, Donald Miller, wrote about Bobs Love. He used a phrase that I truly inspires and has completely changed my perspective. God has strengthened me through it all the more. Donald Miller goes onto explain it like this:
"I don't know how to explain Bob's love except to say it is utterly and delightfully devastating. You simply cannot live the same once you know him. He will wreck your American dream and help you find your actual dream. He will wreck your crappy marriage and help you find a love story. To know Bob is to have a facade you've spent your life maintaining beautifully strewn to ruins while, like a friend, he comes alongside you as your rebuild".-Donald Miller
Not only do I want to exhaust myself (though that has been an ongoing battle and fear of mine) for God and His kingdom but I want the love of God to not hold back as I surrender and allow it to flow out of me. Leaving lives delightfully devastated by that undoubted love.
Breaking down the walls and boxes that we build around ourselves. Allowing that stinging love to come in and strip the numbness of what life had gradually come to. To inspire and be inspired by all who God has put on my path while I witness the love of Christ shine through.
When you really look back on these trials and "errors", truthfully, Praise God because good things will always come from what God brings us through.Keep Adventuring.
