"Mainstream"

It is not a matter of how to explain (That is a challenge in its self).  It is a matter of what to explain and when.
I have been trying to find ways to communicate with people. How to explain myself while trying simply to relate with others. As Jennifer Spears explained, "It's not as cool on the outside. The "hip" factor is stripped".

I am glad I have been going through this season of being stripped. I am glad in all of it to know that I am forgiven for these mental tangents of longings and self proclaimed images. I am seriously not cool. In fact I could be considered a world class nerd with the new style I'm rockin' these days, but the truth is I've mentioned me in a lot of this... It has nothing to do with me. The main truth being that I can't force Jesus Culture on anyone else. They have to want it. I wont repeat myself but reread the opening paragraph again... Go ahead, seriously.

How quickly I forget.

I have been wondering specifically; How do I make myself more mainstream? How do I take myself to a different level but not loose me in the madness?... Maybe it's not madness but it's this place where suddenly I feel stripped. Where suddenly life is reintroduced and things are all the more uncomfortable.

The truth is I don't know how to explain where I've been for the last month. I could speak until I'm hoarse. If I'm honest in asking (and I don't want to assume) What is it you really want to hear?

Many things aside I do not want to shut down. But I am finding it very hard to speak up. I am holding these things close to my heart. Why shelter these experiences? Why keep them for myself for the time being?...Well, I know that not all things fall to deaf ears... But I'm still learning to lean.


Timing is everything friends.

Merry Christmas.