Testing the Seems of this Tent

May 24th is a date. Something much more tangible that what I've been used to lately. We ride in a little more than a month. I am not fully funded and May 24th feels like tomorrow. These human things creep up my spine that make me feel the nerves of this tent tighten and I am worried.

I have been training. Ordering t-shirts, posting, posting, posting. Talking talking talking. Praying for patience, courage and peace. $2,885 is a big number that needs to be dwindled in 20 days. I don't doubt God can do it. Yet here I sit, worried.

Here's what I do have. May 12th and 13th devoted to a driveway/ bake sale with all money raised going to fund the goal of $5,000 to dissolve what is needed and gain more of that $2,885. I also have a dessert Benefit that I will be speaking at on May 19th. The thing I don't know is the outcome of these things.

I do know that I have an article written about me in my home town with two more articles to follow shortly...Me...Me...Me...

All of this has nothing to do with me. My fears and the things that are not of God weighing down my heart for the last couple of days, I pray would be ripped from these bones. If I don't ride, I've still raised money to go toward the cause. That is what matters. But what about the articles? What about the tangible promises of the things like t-shirts and bracelets I would send. What's the point if I don't ride? There's much more point to this than I could ever comprehend.

But again, God is big. No words to explain how big. $2,885 left to come in to ride for Justice, for hope for the love of brothers and sisters. For neighbors near and far. For you... For me. For something that is bigger than all of us.

It's not about me. But I know...I KNOW God will provide what is needed. I am excited to ride this summer.