Privileged

In so many ways we are privileged. Work schedules, retirement, income, lifestyles and hobbies. I believe it is a glitch in our culture to gain an understanding of what all we have a RIGHT to and what we have the PRIVILEGE to. May this be a reminder of how blessed we are and how thankful to The Lord God Almighty we should be.


- Keep adventuring.

Mind Wandering Hearts.

I have been feeling this urge to write lately but there isn't much I feel creative upon in writing. There are topics I would like to touch upon like money, the hearts mind wandering or the searing ache in my finger of where skin is absent from climbing away from various things.

Isn't it interesting how we have topics we wish to touch upon but simply feel like there isn't enough interest from other parties let alone yourself to put enough effort into explanations? It's like a good friend who you can simply sit next to and be understood instead of explaining and reexplaining your life story. But it works at the same time because you have to do the uncomfortable some times. You must seek deeper and even though skin scrapes and heart strings are plucked, it is good to speak. It is good to scream it out with the noise of the frustration of gears working in brain cells and eyes strained to make sense of it all... This life in which we can't even begin to know what will actually happen tomorrow. Does it really even exist? Not until the sun rises again. Until then I am left here sitting on a couch in California after a day of rain trekking through mud puddles on the hunt for slugs but discovered worms instead.

There are things on the horizon that I am excited to be getting you back into. And I will be posting less vague updates soon. But until then I will leave you with this bit of wordage:

Utmost:
"Think of the last thing you prayed about-were you devoted to your desire or to God? Was your determination to get some gift of the spirit for yourself or to get to God? "For your Father knows the things you have need before you ask Him"(Matthew 6:8). The reason for Asking is so you may get to know God better. "Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He shall give you the desires of your heart" (Psalm 37:4) We should keep praying to get a perfect understanding of God Himself."

Get ready for Round 2!

"And hide your spirit within the vine. Where all things will work by a good design"

There's a song that came into my head from a stereo speaker and a prayer this afternoon that I simply can't allow to passed by in times of various wanderings of the mind. The same happens in the most tragic and the most joyous of times. Does this even make sense? No, but when you hear something that comes along you must listen to it or try to multiple times and the more you listen the more you understand about it and the more becomes unveiled to make sense of what doesn't always make sense...Does THAT make any sense?

I am flawed, I am flawed I am flawed. I will always be flawed as much as I like to try and make things perfect. Whether with my job or relationships or this body that God has made personally for me. I am indeed flawed and will always be flawed. It's a real true thing and a realization that scares and frees you all with in the same breathe. I mess up I allow pride to get in my way a lot and I most certainly deny myself the grace I should give myself and others a lot. It doesn't mean that I don't eventually come to the realization of these flaws. I do and I feel at times there is a moment when I feel and learn that the less time I let pass by holding onto it and just let it go the more I wish I had just let it go.

Do you ever listen to songs on repeat? Sometimes the combination of word expression mixed with chords and truth is just too good to move onto the next selection. So you click the button that brings the loop with the number 1 to the selection and as soon as it ends, it begins again and the lesson continues.

Let me show you

Undertows, Under Toes

The sea intimidates me. As I ran I saw sea kelp mangled and huge like something so alien just like this life feels at times.

As I ran through fog this morning/afternoon, I felt tense. When ever I run at the beach I tend to feel Gods wrath more than His peace at times. And I like it. It is a good reminder that He is powerful. I imagine the powerful waves sweeping me away into the abis. How the semi solid earth, sand that my bare feet sink in upon then quickly disappears into the abis, washing away in the undertow.

I feel Him creep up at my heels with cold salt water of the pacific. Urging me to pick up my feet, pick up the pace... Keep going! I couldn't see past the breakers but I could still feel Him and His overwhelming presence of never ending proof. The ocean is less real than God if you think about it. God created the sea so at one point in time it never existed. Perhaps it was a thought that became earthly reality upon the dawn of creation.

Thankful for the ability and opportunity to dream...





Keep adventuring.