That Time When...

There have been many times in my life when I have said I have surrendered my plans and replaced them with Gods. I have been sitting in my own sweat with sore arms from trying to tweak His plans and make them more like mine. I have strained my ears to the point of perhaps pulling a muscle and going mad with the end results and outcomes of my plans gone sour. And His plans taking shape while I look the other direction trying to find my way out of this. Thinking that my plans and ideas are really where I should be and what I should be doing. Giving the cop out answer of, "God told me to do this".

I have asked Him to take things out of my life... He makes them remain.

I have begged God to take things out of my heart... He makes them remain.

I have asked God to prepare me for what is next... He continues these works with in me.

I ask God for direction and a way out... He leads me right back to where He needs me.

I praise God for where He's brought me... He keeps blessing me with joy and hardships.

I have been seeing more and more as of late that I am looking to get somewhere that doesn't exist. Not yet at least. He is still building it with in me. Preparing other places and other faces for who needs to be there and when.

There is one thing I am certain of. God has me content with continually seeking the path He has me on. I am eager to know what's around the next bend. and for the first time ever I am content with knowing and not knowing who will be around that corner. I know that either way it will be hard. and it will also be beautiful.

There are some moments in your life that you look forward to. Things that you never really think would ever happen to you but then when they happen you sort of sit back and you listen. You sit there and you look at these memories being embedded onto the landscapes of your heart while thinking, "So this is what it feels like".  To be loved. To acknowledge the love that is rushing through you. His passion in which He instills in you. The patience He instills in you when you would have thought these trials would drive you mad. But yet you are calm and you fully trust in these things. Through the fog, I continue to step forward trusting the steady ground God places each toe upon.

I will not allow myself to blame God for my cop outs. For trying to get gone when clearly He has something bigger in mind.

Bigger things than moving across the country. Bigger than traveling across bodies of water with hours upon hours of time difference... Something bigger than cycling across an entire country...Twice.

So in the midst of the unfolding and unveiling. I will try my hardest to obey and be patient. Because there will not be a specific moment that it all meshes. It will continue to blend like today and yesterday and the day before. Creating beautiful texture and color to these otherwise dull personal goals and plans we have for ourselves.

The first thing we need to do is trust and truly let go of our control. Like tying a knot in a tight rope while the tension is being pulled. This is the way I see us trying to control our own lives when it would be easier to just simply walk blindfolded across with God as our witness and balance. steadying our feet and hearts every step of the way.

When will you take that step out onto the wire?

-Keep Adventuring