As I sat in a booth at a restaurant in Fort Collins I had wondered the same questions that were currently being asked to me...
It has been 5 months since things really began to get rough after pushing through and running a really fun half marathon in Grant Teton National Park in the least prepared state I've ever been training wise and struggling big time with literal weight in an Osprey on my back. By the summers end I was struggling more and more to even sit or lay down without pain.
It seemed as though things only worsened and it was taking me all that I had (and God knew) in me to simply TRY to act normal and even be happy FULLY. It's amazing how when your body doesn't function how much it effects you mentally and emotionally. This in its self was a very humbling learning point for me.
I decided to go to my friends-Cousins-Dogs-Owners-Father-Who knows a guy in South Africa who suggests...
Just kidding. My Friend Aimee, whose Cousin is a Chiropractor in Fort Collins who runs a practice down there called Elevate Chiropractic, had moved down to Fort Collins to work for her Cousin, Dr. Wallis. She had told me months ago that I could come down for a free analysis. I selected the pass card and DIDN'T go. But once these thorns were really beginning to stick, I was reminded that Aimee's offer still stood. At this point I had gone to the doctor, I had gone to a physical therapist, I had tried just doing nothing... And gaining weight in the midst...So since we still couldn't figure out what was wrong with my entire body, I decided to give it a shot. Why not, right?
Here's what the Analysis revealed:
With some interesting instruments and some poking and light prodding on my back, they scanned my nervous system through my spine to determine the levels of communication between my brain and my body through my spinal cord which then branches out between each of my vertebrate. (there was nothing invasive about the procedure I might add).
Green is pretty much normal communication frequencys
Blue is mild to moderate Communication interference
Red is severe Communication Interference
Black is Chronic interference
White is inability to read (this is often caused by pain medications causing intentional interference, basically covering up the pain)
Learning this my mind was BLOWN! Why? Because symptoms occur as followed:
Well that explains a lot...
So why? Why now? Why have I needed to be burdened with this? Why has it taken so long to find an answer and what is the benefit of seeing this very clearly out-of-whack flawed spine?
Let me repeat my friends question:
"So do you feel like you can see why God hasn't taken this back injury and chronic pain away? Do you feel like there is something He is trying to show you through it?"
As I sat in a booth at a restaurant in Fort Collins I had wondered the same questions that were currently being asked to me.
My answer was this," Honestly I don't have an answer to that.I honestly have had a very hard time understanding why God would not take this pain away and why he would allow it to continue.
I don't know but that's the whole thing... Perhaps I'm just not meant to understand right now but instead choose joy. Instead praise and thank Him that there is a solution...
Such are the questions we ask about others lives seemingly cursed with other injuries loss of limb or cancer or even death.
"21Lord, Martha said to Jesus, "if you had been here, my brother would not have died."..."32When Mary reached the place where Jesus was and saw him, she fell at his feet and said ," Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died." John 11:21, 32
..."40Then Jesus said, "Did I not tell you that if you believed, you will see the glory of God?"
"41So they took away the stone. Then Jesus looked up and said, "Father, I thank you that you have heard me. 42I knew that you always hear me, but you said this is for the benefit of the people standing here, that they may believe that you sent me."
"43When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, "Lazarus, come out!" 44The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linnen, and cloth around his face.
Jesus said to them, "Take off the grave clothes and let him go." John 11:40-44
The morning following dinner, I sat on my couch as I do every morning sitting, reading His words and then pausing to listen. I prayed and asked God if He would tell me and if He didn't I would be OK with it. Acceptance.
As I exhaled I heard Him. I heard Jesus...
"I'm healing you."...
Over and over and over again Jesus spoke these words and they washed over my body soul and spirit. "I'm healing you... I'm healing you... I'm healing you"...
Went through my work day and headed to the gym to continue to try and do some light stuff as the Doc said to do the things I normally do and the body would continue the recalibration process between adjustments. As I finished my painfully SLOW mile and a half jog, I sat in the steam room and just breathed slowly as the cacoon of steam wrapped itsself around me. I was uncomfortable so I began to re position myself and as I did, something was missing...
Pain.
I tested it... Of course. Moving flexing certain muscles and twisting my torso in different directions... Nothing... For the first time in almost a year I didn't feel pain. If even it was just for the evening, there is progress in healing. I have and will continue to see the Chiropractor weekely as it is helping forward the progress. I don't mind driving to Fort Collins because the office has continual loud Christian music playing as well as a very welcoming staff. Dr. Wallis has prayed over my back multiple times as well and it shows that indeed Jesus heals.
We are all progressing. Jesus keeps healing. We are all continually being healed. Whether it is from an injury, illness or even leaving this earth because of those preexisting conditions...
God is healing us and He will restore us to perfection. In His image.
"7Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."- Matthew 7:7
-Keep Adventuring.
