Square One.

I have, I feel, finally broken through this denial that I have been struggling with. Holding higher standards for myself and only allowing my memory to see when I was my best self physically. Rather I am remembering where I was when it all began. I remember the way I felt but remember the consistency and gradual growth with in it.

To the person who is frustrated about injuries, soreness and exhaustion. Thinking something is terribly wrong. To the person who feels distressed about being winded after a mile when you remember running 8 miles and it barely even phased you...

You were once there, but you were also once at square one. Remember your little victories in little mile stones? They were UUUUUGE! It's OK to be at square one again. The movement out of denial into acceptance and humility to bring yourself back to the simplistic mindset of square  one and to not rip yourself apart because of your performance will actually free you of so many pressures and feelings of personal failure.

Many times in many ways it is so good to go back to square one and re-evaluate and "sharpen the saw" so that you can continue to slice and take the pieces to build incredible progress.

Our bodies are temples for the Holy spirit and temples are built not from the top down but from the bottom up. When a temple is so damaged or abandoned or ill maintained, sometimes, the best thing to do is tear it down... And start... From square one.

It is the only way to build upon a solid foundation. Not a temple of self image but a temple that reflects Gods image and intention for God made us in his image.

Square one is a glorious thing.

"24Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on rock. 25The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had it's foundation on the rock. 26But everyone who hears these words of mine and does not put them into practice is like a foolish man who built his house on sand. 27The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house, and it fell with a great crash."- Matthew 7:24-27