Breathe In Truth.

"For since the creation of the world God's Invisible qualities- his eternal power and divine nature- have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that people are without excuse."-Romans 1:20

Please take a moment...

Breathe it in and let it out the shouts of praises for the truths of God's sovereign love for us His Beloveds, is righteous, true, deep and glorious!

T'is the season! This time last year I was flying into Pennsylvania to spend Christmas and New Years on the East coast while getting ready to begin a new season in my life, in Wyoming and at Solid Rock Outdoor Ministries. 

This year I have been making gifts and reflecting as the processing continues from my time in California. While my heart and mind process my time in big tress working with big hearts I am reminded of Gods wondrous presence.

How could something so huge like a Redwood or Sequoia tree ever come from a tiny seed one of 60 to 100 seeds that come from the tiny cones of these trees? When thinking about this incredible creation. I think of these things relating to our own lives and the simplicity of Gods love, compassion and pursuit for us.

Parable of the Seeds

13Then Jesus said to them, Don't you understand this parable? How then will you understand any parable? 14The farmer sows the word. 15Some people are like seed along the path, where the word is sown. As soon as they hear it, Satan comes and takes away the word that was sown in them. 16Others, like seed sown on rocky places, hear the word at once receive it with joy. 17But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away. 18Still others, like seed sown among thorns, hear the word; 19but the worries of this life, the deceitfulness of wealth and the desires for other things come in and choke the word, making it unfruitful. 20Others, like seed sown in good soil, hear the word, accept it, and produce a crop- some thirty, some sixty, some a hundred times what is sown."- Mark 4:13-20

Seek harder and deeper

We can see ourselves as seeds. We can also see others in our lives as seeds. Or we can see situations or circumstances as seed in our lives or the lives of others. These massive trees have the ability to grow from the tiny seeds in which are spread upon the ground by falling cones. The conditions need to be perfect in order for growth to happen. Things like good soil, sunlight, landscape, weather, space, water source and timing. God has every tree figured out because it is His creation. The succession of a forest is amazingly beautiful filled with life, death and rebirth. A lot like our lives, don't you think?

Some trees have abilities to move and grow to reach toward where the sunlight is. Or they are adaptive to be able to withstand the darker areas of the forest.

Something I find most interesting is that the only way for sequoia trees cones to open and germinate they must be exposed to high heat or fire. Through high heat and trial, we are too brought opportunity and possibility that with out those things we would not have opportunity to grow and be prepared and strengthened through these things.

Exposure is a magnificent thing! Don't you think?

December 8th, 2009 continued the cultivation and planting in my life from Gods relentless pursuit in my life for as long as I can remember. Through fiery trial and rejoicing I have been brought here to Laramie to be rooted even deeper in the great love and call on my life as a Beloved daughter of the most high.

My prayer is that whoever reads this would be able to give themselves opportunity to reflect on the seeds in their lives and how God has not only been cultivating them but also what those seeds of various subject have grown into.

-Keep Adventuring.

 

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Lost in Translation.

There are many things that I tend to take for granted. There are many things that I often think that once the experience has happened, we are all "in the clear" or "on the downhill" of the climb. But the truth is that some experiences open doors to taller mountains and steep walls that God calls us to climb out of. At times perhaps these walls seem so tall that it is easier to stay with in the dark depths. At times we push forward and upward but sometimes it feels easier to settle into darkness and let it override the truths that have been shown and planted. it is at these points when the thing that God created begins to manifest and brings opportunity for His hands to become physical through others in what we call the body of Christ... Community.

It is something we should not fight even for a moment. we are not called to believe a lie that is placed with in us that we can't do anything to help. If this was the case, why would we feel the initial calling to action in the first place? We must allow God to work through us... I am human and I can't change anything or anyone but God can work through me and change the hearts of Kings. To him be the glory, forever and ever.

When I was little I went through the stage in my life where I asked the question "why?" all the time. I'm sure some of you are currently going through this phase with either your own little ones or little ones that are near and dear to you. Curiosity is planted deep within us from the very beginning. We seek answers from the very moment we breathe in the air of this world. Sometimes it is the sweet smell of childhood or the refreshment of forest or mountain air. Sometimes it is stale air that we feel stuck and stuffed into while we continue to seek answers to our "whys".

There is somewhere between childhood and where you now might stand that the "why" has become distorted or lost in translation. Don't stop asking why. But be reminded that that specific question is for Gods answer alone at times. We seek to learn as much as we can. Fast internet connections and Google searches can easily lower our patience in gaining answers for why life is the way that it is. I know many times I have seeked with questions to the wrong sources or  view points only to gain another step into darkness or a torn expectation of what I didn't want to hear.

"In his pride the wicked man does not seek him; in all his thoughts there is no room for God."

- Psalm 10:4

"5They will receive blessing from the Lord and vindication from God their Savior. 6Such is the generation of those who seek him, who seek your face, God of Jacob. 7Lift up your heads, you gates; be lifted up you ancient doors, that the King of glory may come in." 

-Psalm 24:5-7

"And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him." 

-Hebrews 11:6

There are so many questions that we do not have answers to but this doesn't mean we should stop seeking. To just accept what we believe might be false but instead seek God to show us answers with in ourselves, our lives and the lives of others.

"No temptations has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it."

-1 Corinthians 10:13

-Keep Seeking.

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Difference Maker In Skinny Jeans

I'm going to go out on a bit of a long limb here but there is something that I have been thinking about for a couple of weeks now and the different perspectives that we see through it all. I'm talking about material things. Materialistic lifestyles and possessions that we have but honestly aren't really ours.

Material items can be a form of expression. They can be a form of art or deemed as a ticket to popularity or self worth. We can posses these items but these items can also posses us. Our tunnel vision can ensue when we see something visually pleasing which then triggers the "need" aspect VS the "want". It can lead us to making rash decisions and even poor life choices depending on our mentality of where these items are ranked in our own lives.

You can call me a hipster, go ahead. I really enjoy some of the styles that are deemed "Hipster" or even "Hippie" Clothing in its self can be a form of expression or a form of fitting in. Often times our fashion and our cultures or personal backgrounds don't tend to clash.

Let me dig a bit deeper... Bring yourself back to high school (As hard as that might be). Do you remember walking around the halls and knowing who you got along best with. You knew your best friends and you knew who you "didn't want to hang out with" This may be a far fetched stereotype but perhaps think about movies like Mean Girls or Never Been Kissed. Think about how the "nerd" of the movie whether a main character or not has always been the butt of jokes or the plot line of transformation. How with in that the clothes we wear and the ways we make ourselves look can feel crucial compared to how God has created us to be.

My other perspective that relates to this is the fact that we as Christians or Jesus lovers, people lovers, whatever you would like to call Gods children, we are called to walk alongside everyone. We are not dressed in physical righteousness of white robes or gold trimmed jeans but rather we are normal people who blend in just like Jesus had.

"Paul a servant of Christ Jesus, called to be an apostle and set apart for the gospel of God-"   Romans 1:1

"But when God, who set me apart from my mother's womb and called me by his grace, was pleased"- Galatians 1:15

"Such a high priest truly meets our need- one who is holy blameless, pure, set apart from sinners, exalted above the heavens."- Hebrews 7:26

God works through us to work alongside in others lives.

With in this life, these cultures and this era even in eras past it is always better to blend in and be cautious when making new friends or creating community in a foreign place. It kind of makes me think of that guy who took a long time to be able to live among a pack of wolves... To dress alike, to act alike to come along side someone and to build trust with them. To blend in with what those around us find comfort in and build life and giving living water with in that.

I like style. I might even be a hipster but clothes are a huge way to relate in our culture and multiple other cultures. It brings something similar. something to relate to. "I like your shoes." or "I have the same scarf." often begin conversations more than we ever have nerve to just walk up to someone and say hello. A lot of time we make the first connection based on known commonalities.

I wont wear all skinny jeans or pattagucci (Patagonia brand) but I also wont base my connections or relationships off of what we wear what we eat, who we succeed or fail to be everyday. Instead I'd like to blend in and come along side of whoever God calls me to minister too. He has given us blessed gifts and ideas of fashion and expression to communicate more than we even realize.

So what can we communicate back?


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Short & Sweet.

I need you to do something. 

Read 1 John
Read all of it, not just glimpses. Drink it in and let it quench you with truth and capture your heart in light as it ignites you brighter and brighter as the veil is removed.

Secondly I have had two songs on repeat this week and last week and possibly the week before.
Listen to them on repeat...

In Over My Head- Jenn Johnson

Pieces- Amanda Cook

That is all.

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Day One.

7But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8Indeed, I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9and be found in him not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith- 10that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11that by any means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead."- Philippians 3:7-11

Yesterday was my 365th day of being 28. and Today marks day 1 of being 29. My final year in my twenties. My new embarking on a new year in a new age that I never EVER thought or dreamed of getting or being brought to.

My awestruck wonder manifests from from sitting here, being 29 and thinking about when I was at the end of my teens about to enter the life of a 20 year old I had a thought and a feeling continually that there wasn't much point in planning ahead because I knew I wouldn't live past 21. No drug overdoses, or self harm planned. I just always had assumed for as long as I could remember that I would die young not making it to 22 and beyond. Because of this idea, I never planned ahead in the sense of education or career, though quality relationships were always crucial to me.

However when I turned 22 I realized that I wasn't going to die. Not in a physical sense at least. When I was 22 I was in the midst of a battle. God was battling for the life of his daughter. I have spent many a birthdays doing different things. I have spent birthdays studying, I have spent birthdays with friends and I have spent birthdays completely alone. On my 23rd Birthday I spent the majority of the day silent. I went from class to class quietly and just reflecting. I had bible study that evening and I went and celebrated with my friends and my mentor made me an ice cream cake (the best kind). A month later in that same 23rd year I surrendered my life to Christ.

As I reflect on this being my 29th Birthday and how far God has brought me in the life he has ultimately called me towards beginning at 22 when the search on my end significantly began and where his pursuit of my life continued, I have realized something huge...

I did die at age 21. God began the process at least. "I once thought these things were valuable". If I'm honest I can't even remember the details of meaning in my life before 22. But with in that year of dieing to myself and in the continual revival God brings to my life daily, I really am blown away that I am 29 and blessed to serve the King who saved my life. And I am thankful that I can at least begin to identify "counting everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord."- Philippians 3:8

"24If you try to hang onto your life, you will loose it. But if you give up your life for my sake you will save it. 25And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but are yourself lost or destroyed?"- Luke 9:24-25

In my reflection, in years, months and days that pass... Everyday is day 1.

-Keep Adventuring.

Engaging in Engagements.

I've never been one to enjoy raising attention. To being elaborate in pursuing my own desires or planning and dreaming in the ways that perhaps we would when we were little. In my brain, if you want it bad enough, it is with in your reach. It is possible to do whatever you would like if it is the same desires as Gods.

I didn't know that entirely while I was growing up but I also didn't waste time with minor details like what my wedding dress would look like. I didn't pretend to walk down imaginary isle or dream of what my husband would look like. I more or less jumped to the conclusion that I just knew that one day I would be married. I didn't care how it happened or what the day looked like but all I knew was that that feeling of joining your life with someone, intentionally pursuing things together. Pursuing interests, callings, hardships and discovery, I knew that a marriage was something that I know my heart has always desired.

Yet in recent years I have been torn with knowing and trying to understand my relationship with Jesus and how that is ultimately the most important relationship we will ever uphold and pursue. So why would we spend time pursuing a different relationship if it is not Jesus? How can we divide our time when we should be fully devoting ourselves to the most high King?

I don't know why I always put God into a box but I do. I tend to think it impossible to divide my time for unconditional quality time and love when I have so many places to physically be and accomplish. But God is so much bigger than that. I have often times gotten jealous while living in California, sneaking down to the living room early in the morning to spend some good wholesome time with God, praying, reading his truths and promises when either someone was also present or someone else came down to also spend time with Him.

I was jealous because I wanted all of him and no desire to share him with anyone else. How could God be fully focused on me if he was with this other daughter that loved him so much? It's fully possible for God. He is Jealous for us. He is jealous for me and the time I spend with him. When it is hindered by these jealous thoughts instead of just fully being with him in that opportunity it complicates my heart. It can bring up distrust and can build walls to prevent trust from growing toward others.

I moved to Laramie in January and there were a lot of new things to acclimate to.

-Living alone for the first time ever after living with 6 other girls for 4 years.
-Weekends off
-A routine work schedule
-Snow and bitter cold VS rain and California Sunshine
-Evenings off

I had made my plans and was so excited to jump into this new season of my life completely content in living alone and really having a chance to hunker down with the Lord so that I could build my relationship with him and him alone. Looking back now I can very clearly hear Gods snickers and giggles of the determination behind my plans. Again I knew what I wanted so I was getting it.

The Fellow.

I was excited to move to Laramie to work for SROM and to pursue plugging in and serving the greater Laramie Community. With that I would be able to spend time growing deeper in relationship with former instructors turned close friends and living life with them and embarking on this thing called community. When Emily invited me over for dinner one night she had no intention on setting me up with one of her and her husbands closest friends. Neither did I. So much so that I was actually rather cold to this fellow and was trying very hard to push away even just plugging into community because I didn't want anything to come between me and Jesus.

Conviction set in and I could feel God moving my heart in asking me, "Do you think by pushing my body away that you can ultimately get closer to me? That not sharing in the goodness of me and sharing only pieces of yourself is really building and growing you the way that I intended?"

So I flexed and let down a couple of walls. This fellow and I went climbing with Emily on March 28th. Where we struck up a conversation and the subjects went deeper. They were detailed and they were meaningful. We began to learn each other and the ways that God designed us. The conversation moved from the crag to the coffee shop where I drank a pint of water and he drank nothing while we continued the conversation for 3 more hours. Realizing we were hungry we decided to go get Thai food and since then the conversation has never stopped. In talking with this fellow and in praying with this fellow I have discovered something better than being alone. I have discovered that God is truly and entirely present in and through another beloved that he designed. I've learned that through the unlearning of fear and past experience of falsely designed blue prints and accepting love back into the heart while talking through hard things and CHOOSING to love regardless has set my perspective and understanding on what it means to be Christ to someone. To sacrifice and die to ones self yet be made fully a live in each season as we walk, talk, challenge, celebrate and allow God to conquer through us.

Austin and I mid repel.

7 months have gone by with this fellow and on Saturday October 24th we went climbing. At the top of the climb we sat and talked about the places we had climbed and the fellow asked questions of names of rock formations that he pointed to. After spending some time, the wind had picked up and I suggested we head back down and do another climb. He said he had one more question for me. I turned to him and he was moving to get on one knee.

He asked if I would marry him and I asked if he was serious. He pulled a ring out of his pocket and I was shocked. He slipped it onto my finger and we finally got to say what we had been suppressing for months... How much we loved each other. We danced a bit and we prayed.
Before we repelled the entire way down we took a photo.

I have seen many relationships and I have desired some of the same things as other people have lived theirs out. I have decided what I don't want in a relationship and better understand the importance of having people other than your spouse in your life. The importance of people knowing you and knowing Christ in you. This fellow that I get to call my beloved husband for the rest of my life knows me well enough that I like to celebrate and include people who are near and dear to me. So he led me on a treasure hunt all around the Vedauwoo region.

Me and Stevie Jean

To the first place we climbed together just the 2 of us I found a compass and coordinates to plug in which led me to a box with head phones. He told me to come over and plug them in as we sat on a boulder. My best friends face was on the screen and I instantly began to sob. Words of encouragement flowed from her mouth and her genuine excitement about what the day and the future would consist of.

Me and Ry

Once I composed myself we headed to the next location where I found a letter from my best friend whom I've adventured with for years and has truly inspired me in so many ways. A best friend who loves unconditionally and hard in the ways that she encourages and speaks what is true.

Me and Emily

I wasn't sure if my heart could handle the surreal joy that it was undertaking any longer. And then we walked to find the next treasure. It was in a location I had never been but the note from the soul that I discovered in this place I have always felt like I have known for years. Someone who God had used as a huge part for this entire day happening in the first place. Again loosing it all I had the means of doing was thanking God for all of this. For his faithfulness.

Me and Liv

Onto the location where we saw Gods creation unfold in the night sky with what pleases him to please us by bringing awestruck wonder from meteors where I found a note from a beloved that brought so much love and encouragement to acknowledging all of the seasons in my life and how Gods faithfulness through all of it. And continuing to hit home about Gods promises and truths entering this new season with a husband.

Me with Whitney and Jacob

As we got to town and began to make celebratory phone calls, I was blown away by how many people knew this day would unfold the way that it had without my knowledge. I was completely surprised and was so, so in love with the life that God has blessed me with. I was overwhelmed and again surprised to see that a final note had arrived and it was full of excitement and reality that helped it all to sink in a bit more.



I'm so overwhelmed. My best friend, the love of my life has asked me to adventure into eternity with him and I honestly cannot express the love that continues to pour over the rim of my cup with joy, gratitude, thanksgiving and excitement to seek deeper with him and for this I am so thankful for Gods love and the promises that flow from this incredible relationship with my Abba Father.

I'm Engaged!



















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Driving In Circles.

"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."- Philippians 4:7

I drove 14 hours from Sacramento, California back to Laradise, Wyoming on Tuesday. While on this trek to complete the circle I had begun driving nearly three weeks ago. As I walked through my door and continued the reflection on what had just taken place, I felt overwhelmed by many things.

Mainly I felt overwhelmed by love. I felt overwhelmed by Gods strength manifested within me and his continual guidance and grace in my life especially over these last 2 weeks on the road. 

Over the last week in Northern California there were certain aspects that I had felt like I never left. There were good and hard things about this feeling. It was solidifying, however, to identify these hard things and how they still ripple in my life in Laradise. There were multiple conversations with those whom my heart has swelled for... That my heart has broken for and that the presence of God soaking our souls in his presence. These are just a few of the highlights that I have been dwelling on and seeing more and more how important every word has been as it has come out of my mouth and as it has entered my ears.

Over the course of these last two weeks, I have met with well over 50 appointments. meeting with people to tell people about the ministry I've been serving with, Solid Rock Outdoor Ministries and to share how God has been able to use me and my coworkers here to build the kingdom and bring glory to him through back country programming and discipleship.

Mostly planned out and entirely worth every extra mile and last minute meet up. My voice has not been this horse from conversing for a long time. And with in these conversations I rediscovered the importance of grace, humility and peace that is a constant. It is constant if we continue to acknowledge it and foster it.

Sadly I was terrible at getting photos with all who I met with and invited onto my support team but I have a few photos. To make things more interesting I have added photos from past seasons of life. Everything has led up to now. There is so much happening yet Gods peace soaks into every crack or crevasse. Thank you Jesus.

To all whose faces I was graced with the opportunity to meet up with and spend some time sharing vision and hear parts of vision God has put on your life and helping you step continually into light out of darkness, Thanks for you. I am greatly encouraged by all that God has spoken through each of you. Joy, Truth, Lamenting, and love. All of it.

Justin and Kaity 2015

Becky 2013

Ben and Lisa 2012

Joel 2015

Alicia and Robert 2015

Ruth 2015

Wendy 2015

Malina 2015

To those who are pictured here and to those who are not. I can't express to each of you enough how thankful I am for the moments you sacrificed to meet with me and to listen to what I had to share about what's happening here in Laramie, Wyoming. For believing in me and what God is doing in this life we've been given. You know exactly who you are! Thank you for asking me hard questions and thank you for being real with me.

Idaho, Washington, Oregon, California.



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Preparedness

I've been on the road for 11 days now. started in Wyoming--Idaho--Washington--Oregon and now I'm in California.

I can honestly say that I felt as prepared as I could be for this journey. I planned out my visits and appointments accordingly and in a timely manner. And upon arriving to each location whether I'm driving or walking to a destination to meet anyone, I've been praying hard and honestly that God would use me continually. That his will be done and that hearts would hear him through all of these words and catching up that I speak. That I would be able to continue forward living with abandon for God.

Through out these conversations that I've had and the processing I have been doing on my long days of driving, it all kind of fell in place with words that were spoken to me yesterday during a meeting with an old friend. While catching each other up on life and speaking dreams and encouragement to one another she said something that was told to her.

"If you wait until you're ready to do something, you'll never be ready to do it."

#truth... So much truth was in that phrase that spoke true to my heart my soul and the reality of where I've come from and where I've gone to. If we ourselves wait to be ready to go forward or to pursue something we will never be in the anticipated readiness that we picture and set expectation for. Sometimes you just need to take that step off the cliff and hope and trust that there is a step just below the cloud surface that will hold your weight and the weight of your choices... In my imagination I like to think of that step being Gods finger or maybe a piece of his robe as He leads us forward.

I wasn't ready to move to California but I went.

I wasn't ready to ride my bike across the country in 2012 but I went.

I wasn't ready to lead a cross country bike tour in 2013 but still I went.

I wasn't prepared to go into the back country of Wyoming but still I went and was radically changed.

I wasn't prepared to move to Laramie Wyoming where all of these things prior ultimately prepared more for what I am on day 11 of.

All that to say God provides. He has provided and he will continue to provide. This journey isn't over yet but I am finding that what I've been doing has been so much better than I ever could have imagined or dreamed.

If you don't fight God for the reigns on your life you will often find that when you pray for a simple junk car to get you from point A to point B, often times He will give you a Mazda 3 hatch back that will take you from Pennsylvania to Laramie Wyoming to Idaho, Washington, Oregon and California. To remind you of his sovereignty.

Things I've been learning while on my support tour:
-Idaho is BEAUTIFUL
-Old jokes are still hilarious
-Gloomy days of driving can be very joy filled and restful.
-Support meetings and appointments aren't always around a table but instead on foot or bike on pavement or trail and hat's perfectly fine.
-Portland is in fact weird
-While in Leavenworth, WA it is always best to eat lots of Alaskan fish and chat about real wolverines.
-When in Portland going to Voodoo Donuts is a great idea
-Eating too many Voodoo Donuts when you're

gluten free is a bad idea (worth it)
-Sometimes the best encouragement is face to face chats on a water front
-Witnessing seasons of other peoples lives adding onto the seasons you did life with them causes the heart to swell with tremendous pride and joy.
-The smell of the Redwood Forest will probably always be one of my favorite smells. 
-Loving unconditionally is and will always be the best decision.

This time next week I'll be back in Laradise.

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Driving Seasons.

"Don't worry about anything. Instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done."- Philippians 4:6

The leaves are continually changing as the seasons come and go and just like each of these seasons has a different look and feel so do seasons of life. Through it all I can say confidently that I have struggled to not worry about my life or the life of others but I work on it daily. 

I recently got an email invitation to my 10 year high school reunion and a couple of my thoughts funneled into wondering what everyone was up to that I didn't actually keep in touch with. How many people were married who looked like what and still baffled on how it has been 10 years already since leaving the only thing that we knew and that was small town life "nestled in the hills of Summit". 

This current season of my life in that reflection is different than high school, different than college. It is continually different than the four seasons that change on the east coast. As each of these seasons changed I am reminded of something someone once said about to truly know someone you need to know them for 3 years. As these years have gone by it has been 5 years since I have lived in Pennsylvania and  almost a year since I have lived in California. and through this time I have met, seen and learned a lot of people.  Through all of this time I have been able to truly know people through rejoicing with them and lamenting with them in these various different seasons.

Downtown Boise, Idaho

It is within this current season of my own life that  I am realizing how incredible it is to witness these lives that have intertwined with mine and taught me so many things about this life and the life of others. It is currently within this seasons of getting to see and witness that swells my heart with so much joy and gladness of babies, new marriages, new living locations, new professions, and unveiling new passions and loves for new developments in lives that makes me overwhelmed with seeing Gods life working in and through all of it... God is so faithful.

This week and next week I get to see a few of these people and update them on my life in Laradise and invite them along for the journey. 

In recent thought process I have seen myself not worry about my own life while on this daily drive but simply asking God continually that he would use my life. That he would continually pursue others through me and bring opportunity to those who surround me. 

"That is all that we are, candle holders in a dark place".- Pastor Woody, Manenberg, South Africa

Or perhaps mirrors reflecting the light of Jesus...

Not sure if you know this or not but I am in the road promoting SROM and the work that God has been doing in this ministry.

Currently I am in Cashmere, Washington. I've been on the road for almost a week and it has been a whirlwind of smiles, real talk and meetings. I can't thank you enough for your hospitality and your considerations for you support with in my future time serving in the ministry of Solid Rock Outdoor Ministries. It has been a true pleasure and honor to share what  God has put on my heart o share with each of you that  I have visited and shared life with over this past week.

Foothills outside of Boise, Idaho

And it's not over yet!

I'll be in the Leavenworth area until Monday morning.

Then it's off to Seattle -->Portland--> Paradise--> Santa Rosa

Things that I've been thankful for in between my long drives:

-Opportunity to spend some long times in conversation with God

-Opportunity to see people in their seasons and truly hear them.

- Seeing falling leaves and changing weather.

Jeremy and I in Prosser, WA

-Sharing vision and light with many in the midst of movement. 

-Sharing meals and words with people.

-Opportunity to speak randomly and allow God to do that random speaking through me.

-Meeting loads of new people.

-Drinking lots of Chai.

-Songs that hit you in the feels.

-Safely reaching destinations and places to lay my head.

-Hard laughter and in depth words that bring so much meaning and perspective.

Thanks for the company thus far everyone! And thanks for letting me share life with you and what Gods been doing in my life as well!

My friend Jeremy owns his own restaurant in Prosser Washington and I am SOOOOOOO Excited and proud for him! if you're ever driving through you should check him out!

My drive into Cashmere yesterday was delightfully fall filled with all kinds of amazing foliage.

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Stepping Out.

" 12 For the word of God is alive and powerful. It is sharper than the sharpest two-edged sword, cutting between soul and spirit, between joint and marrow. It exposes our innermost thoughts and desires."- Hebrews 4:12

God has been all up in my grill this week. He's been exposing some things that have been both hardening my heart as well as poisoning my relationship with him. And man oh man have his words that I have been reading been extremely convicting. This verse above I love the thought of God entering us in these ways. Physically cutting into us in between our working parts and stripping, trimming stuff in our lives so that we may function better. So that we are less distracted of such things and so that we can better focus on relationship with God which is the most important relationship. So that we may humble ourselves and repent. I am human and this is a constant struggle. 

Ugh. God loves me so much! Sometimes I really can't understand let alone handle this truth. But he does and he will continue to pour grace over me which exemplifies what I should continually do with others.He will never stop pursuing me. Not even if I asked him to. He is Relentless.

I'm not the only one. He loves all of us so HOARD and so deeply DAILY. Even when we don't love ourselves, Gods love is there. It will always be there. 

Stepping out into anything that involves the sacrifice of time or money or both is an invitation to let our faith flood in and trust that whatever we are doing, if it is for the glory of  God, he will bless it 300 fold. 

Think bigger. If we allow the sword to slice and hit us deeply it will not only free us from our bondage and from darkness that we may have stumbled into but...

God is a ripple effect. As long as we are fluid and transparent with him, he will spread himself across every depth of the pools of people with whom we are surrounded by as well as further beyond.

I will try to be as transparent with you as possible:

I leave this weekend for a two week journey that consists of a lot of driving, a lot of speaking and a lot of life on life happening. I'm a little nervous but mostly, I'm so excited to talk to people about what I am doing out here in Laradise working for Solid Rock Outdoor Ministries full time. 

I can't wait to drink some Chai with you and hear you!

Here's my route:

 

West coast I hope you're ready...

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T'is The Seasons.

"7But whatever gain I had, I counted as loss for the sake of Christ. 8Indeed, I count everything as a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ 9and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which comes through faith in Christ, the righteousness from God that depends on faith- 10that I may know him and the power of his resurrection, and may share his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11that by and means possible I may attain the resurrection from the dead."-Philippians 3:7-11

In November of 2010 I was given a little note from a friend who was in the midst of memorizing this scripture. Every time I read this scripture I think of her and smile. And each time that I read this scripture I am reminded more and more of the things I posses and feel more attached to than Christ Jesus my savior.

It is with in these moments that life is taken a little less seriously in the respects and opportunity to recenter the true worth and wealth of knowing my God. And I would like to be bold in inviting you to seek deeper into the pursuit of Jesus is and the truth of his unending, unfailing, unconditional love and pursuit of each of us whether we realize it or not.

In other nuts!- This week has been one that has been blessed and full of opportunity. I've been talking to lots of friends on the West Coast and planning out my route!

Guys I leave a week from Saturday for Idaho! And from there I'll be heading further west to promote Solid Rock Outdoor Ministries and invite people continually to be apart of the journey!

It's also officially Fall time and you know what that means...

But really... I have missed crisp mornings with changing foliage as it continually gets colder not wetter. (no offense Nor Cal) I miss the Redwoods and I am excited to see them in a couple of weeks!

Laradise... Not to shabby, friend. Not too shabby.








 I also got flash-backed to Summer 2012 to early morning wake up calls and long days on a bike saddle with one of the greatest teams I could have ever ridden with. Bringing the faces of those people to the front of my mind while enjoying the musical talents of Trevor Hall live.

 And I will say this that although I don't know what Trevor believes faith wise, this specific song from his newest album is really epic and extremely truth filled. You should check it out too:  You Can't Rush Your Healing



Oh and my friend Becca milked a goat. She was house sitting for a friend and that also entailed taking care of the animals they had. She invited anyone and everyone along for the educational experience. Why would anyone pass up this kind of opportunity anyway?
Thanks Becs.





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Kinds of Crazy.

What categorizes doing something crazy?

Is it the distance?
Is it the terrain?
Is it the country?
Is it the reason?
Is it the passion?
Is it the calling?
Is it the doubt?
Is it the desire?
Is it the willingness?
Is it the love?
Is it the anger?
Is it the insanity?
Is it the oppression?
Is it the celebration?
Is it the grieving?
Is it the detail?
Is it the weight?
Is it the justice?
Is it the Gratefulness?

Idaho 2012 Just+Hope Tour

Somewhere in Montana 2012 Just+Hope Tour

2013 New Jersey Across America Tour

Tahoe Tough Mudder 2014

Snowmass Tough Mudder 2015

 I have done some categorized crazy things in my life and  through these experiences I have met those who I can relate to in doing these things for all of the reasons above and more. These experiences have shown and grown witness in seeing that God creates each of us with a purpose. And he combines us in seasons where He calls us to obey. Where He calls us to be open and willing to sacrifice our time and efforts. Through these things life and light is shed continually and from that the blessing of memories and his strength with in us manifests.

My Mom asked me the other day why I like my boyfriend, Austin, so much. And I feel like my answer to this question reflects and meshes well with my thoughts above and the relation to the subject of crazy.

There has been a lie that I had been slowly stumbling to believe in my past years of pursuing God and the ways in which He's been calling me. And it was that perhaps I shouldn't be so passionate about physical sacrifice. Perhaps I shouldn't be so "intense" about the enjoyment of suffering for the sake of others through long bike rides, long runs and manual labor. I shouldn't be such a strong, independent woman that does insane things like climb mountains ski harder than most guys I know. That perhaps guys couldn't keep up with me so there for the guy I date I just need to tone down and put these passions away. And these things aren't just physical. They are also within deep conversation, digging and depth of thoughts and hard talking points that I have seen bring so much life even though the subjects can be hard and exhausting.

Lies.

Snowmass Tough Mudder 2015

In fact, Austin has redefined a term in my life that I had adopted a few years back in California and that is "Do hard things". While learning more about Austin and the things that we commonly share that include doing crazy things like climbing mountains, destroying our skin on off-width and crack climbing, leaving bits of ourselves on the trail while mountain biking and suffering through various obstacles while running Tough Mudders... Never once has he held back or put me on what a lot of people in the climbing community would know as "The Girlfriend Belay". He pushes me further away from what is comfortable in my physical strength as well as closer to my Abba Father. Challenging me to approach life more and more from a Christ centered perspective and grace. It is incredible how much God uses each of us as tools in each others lives to chisel, file, and mold to grow strengthen and build up so much of us for his glory!

Snowmass Tough Mudder 2015

For the first time in my life I haven't been holding back or believing that lie that I need to tone down what God has created and cultivated deep with in me the passions that for the first time I can share with a significant other. Which God has been blessing tremendously with the opportunity and ability to multiply that passion and creating the opportunity to bless and serve others through what He is creating in us as a couple.

Whether it is Biking, running, backpacking, climbing or simply sitting and resting and being challenged to grow in conversation and Gods word...

You could even say that literally doing nothing is crazy.

So what kind of crazy will you get into today?

Here are some suggestions for you if you need some ideas:
Venture Expeditions
Solid Rock Outdoor Ministries Trips
Marathons and Half Marathons
Tough Mudder
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Own It.

"The name of the Lord is a strong tower;
the righteous man runs into it and is safe."- Proverbs 18:10

NEEDTOBREATHE- Brother

There has been a common pattern this week in conversations that I have had. This common theme is faith. This common theme is belief, understanding and continual surrender.

There is something to be said for the faith that is shared within the body but also the truth of the struggle to build upon that faith continually, to keep trusting. With in writing this post this week, I had originally emphasized on saying things like "we" or "us" or "our". While rereading this post I decided to take an honest step out and replace every single one of those words with "I", "myself" and "me". 

I'm owning it this week guys.

Through our hardships and short comings VS our joys, blessings and celebrations, for me, it always seems to be easier to see Gods goodness through the less abrassive seasons of my life. Perhaps it's easier to trust and "surrender". Yet when the hard things begin to rampage and rush into my very own fishbowl, I openly admit that I struggle to let go of what is chained to the bottom of this bowl. I water log myself when I hold on. My situational focus goes to these chained things continually wondering why I am consumed. Wondering how I could ever get through it all this time.

 "And in the Synagogue there was a man who had the spirit of an unclean demon, and he cried out with a loud voice, "Ha! What have you to do with us, Jesus of Nazareth? Have you come to destroy us? I know who you are- the Holy One of God." But Jesus rebuked him, saying, "Be silent and come out of him!" And when the demon thrown him down in their midst, he came out of him, having done him no harm."- Luke 4:33-35

"Now when the sun was setting, all those who had any who were sick with various diseases brought them to him, and he laid his hands on every one of them and healed them. And the demons also came out of many, crying,"You are the Son of God!" But he rebuked them and would not allow them to speak, because they knew that he was the Christ."-Luke 4:40-41

Demons know of the Holy One! Nothing needed to be proved, said, taught or revealed to them. Just like the creation of the world! How...Why... is it so hard for me to trust and know that Jesus is who He says He is...GOD. Why have I feared he will fail us in some way? Why does that anxiety creep back in through all of the steadfast history of His continual renewal and strengthening. Through His historical promises and faithfulness in my own life and the witnessing of others lives?

It is his will not mine... HIS not mine. And it is his grace and mercy that soaks me daily through this loosening of grips.

I drown myself daily in my sin and lack of surrender by holding that chain at the bottum of the bowl wondering why I can't focus, breathe or give it up. If I let go the weight will disapear. If I let go, I will breathe in life. If I let go, I will have light shed upon me and God will pull me out of all of this darkness that rushes in and consumes my life in this fish bowl type world.

I am deceived though it is so easy to see truth. I am blinded when the truths of Jesus and his faithfulness are so easy to identify. Even demons know God. and they do not deny that he exists. They don't have a choice. satan can't even break that truth.

"If you are the Son of God, throw yourself down from here, for it is written,

 "He will command his angles concerning you to guard you," 

and

 "On their hands they will bear you up, least you strike your foot against a stone.'"

And Jesus answered him, "It is also said,

 'You shall not put the Lord your God to the test.'" 

And then then satan had ended every temptations, he departed from him until an opportune time."

-Luke 4:9-13 

Just read the entire book of Luke

Stop questioning... Let go of the chains in the depths and let him revive you. Let the veil be torn and let the holy spirit flood you continually. It brings redemption, healing, light out of darkness and truth... And satan freaking knows it!

 Hallelujah!

Thank you Jesus.

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Please Leave Your Candy Coat at the Door.

"In Resurrection stillness there is Resurrection power."- Streams In the Dessert, daily devotional.

A friend of mine recently sent me this webcomic on Anxiety and depression:
I struggle with anxiety and depression.

It has been about a month since I've gone completely off of my Anti-depressant. I wish I had the praise report in a way that brought good news of life feels great and I haven't looked back once. Hence the title this week.

I don't care again. It gets worse as the days go on. And I am torn between sharing and not wanting to speak. Not wanting to "burden", yet not having anything in me that cares. I sigh loudly internally as interactions come. I don't want to pick up the phone, I don't want to give the negative report of how nothing's changed. Of how today isn't even slightly better than yesterday. I don't feel like praying or even speaking of this feeling of being slowly sufficated. It feels like this in my bones.

Brain in a jar with eyes connected in some strange out of body experiential way, distant from my zombie body. I wish I had forgotten what this feels like but this feeling causes years to blend together while sifting from the good to the sorrowful. Sorrow is good. Dwelling is good but it is not good to continually dwell... I'm not dwelling, I'm roaming in this mind struggle of brain chemical imbalances like walking on teeters that tot with the heaviest of weights on my heart and soul. Stifling my spirit while it tries to rebuke. While it awaits the lifting and settling of me.

The backs of my eyes feel swollen as if I've been crying rivers. Yet the only things that have been brought to the surface are stoic stares with longing to not feel so distant yet still not caring at all.

There seems to be a slight contentment in sitting and starring.

My eyes feel swollen from the inside out that causes my blank stare  to flood my body and fumble my steps. Reality... Experiement gone wrong or perhaps a small success above the surface that becomes more and more distant as I slip numbingly deeper and deeper below to the depths of foggy water and paralizing pressure. It is not the good pressure that one feels from hugs rather a kind that prevents you from speaking properly, seeing reality and thriving outward.

These depths bring out survival skills...

 Instead the praise report is that I gave it a shot. I ventured out to find, in fact, that I still need to be on Anti-depressants. This week has been harder than any other specifically through the "detox phase" and my denial about detoxing. The denial broke when my head became more foggy and my energy level plummited while my anxiety levels began to rise. But I am hopeful like I've mentioned, if God wanted to take it away, he would. But he hasn't so there is purpose and reason behind that.

This truth is what I cling to. Purpose.

-Keep Adventuring... Through it all.




 



Ben Howard has been a continual part of my sound track this week.