Life Experience Needed.

Matthew 10:39- "If you cling to your life you will loose it; but if you give up your life to me, you will find it."

I am trying to experience this each minute in each word that I speak to those about the journey that God is bringing me on to fulfill what it is that He is trying to accomplish. I began to experience and see this as my years and opportunities have unfolded in California. People put in my life to share and dream with while his plans are fulfilled in and through each of us.

I am trying to understand the direction and weight of my reactionary process of how God's plans unfold for me. Lately I have lost my "go with the flow" and be joyful regardless. Instead everything is radically up or radically down. Either radically effected or radically unaffected. Big deals out of nothing and ignoring apparent favoritism. I've allowed distraction to get the best of me. And in that I am humbled, reminded and pushed back in the direction that is needed and so important because it leads to the fulfillment in Gods plans, not my own.

Today I look around and see students studying mundane things for high school classes. I can remember studying French at the library with Sam Pride in 8th grade and desperately trying to stay awake while listening to teachers teach seemingly irrelevant things. Doing homework and writing papers that I honestly can't even remember subjects and topics of.

I see the importance of education but why do I feel like the majority of it didn't even stick? As I'm sitting here writing I am thankful for the ability to read and write. Most of my teachers were passionate about impacting students and encouraging them. I'm sure I wouldn't be where I am without teachers who truly cared about my succeeding. Seeing the light inside of me and so many others in their time and devotion. It is something I have thought of a lot.

Things like life skills, love, belief, encouragement, raw reality and strength building through it are just a few things that come to mind when I think of my early education. No candy coating, but instead, tough love that grows us and made me better and thankful for the struggle and succeeding through that struggle. Although looking back, life seemed so much easier then. Things that we face today wouldn't even seem possible if we had not experienced those "impossible" things then.

We have no idea where we are being brought to through all of it. But how blessed is it to be fostered by the wise and courageous to learn and thrive to become better at who God wants us to be?

I don't want to go back to school anytime soon. In fact when I see students with their text books I am so thankful that I'm not in their shoes. But that doesn't mean that I don't want to keep learning. Everyday I question. Everyday we learn something new, everyday we discover and seek to understand something or someone more. How awesome is it to hold that passion to learn? I am continually encouraged by teachers past and present and I also apologize to English teachers. I wish more had stuck with proper punctuation...

But life is a learning experience.