Unfolding

I was sitting on my flight back from Washington making a to do list of upcoming events and tasks for the next few weeks that are quickly dwindling and wrapping up my time in California. I was wishing I could be able to do all of these things right then and there and have it all be accomplished.

But then what?

Then what would I be preparing for? How would it make me any more present instead of day dreaming?

God has such purpose in His timing and I remind myself of that on a moment to moment basis.
His timing, not mine.
His will, not mine.
His Desires, not mine.
That last one is the hardest by far. Where do our desires come from and where in this walk does it not match up with His desires? At what moment do our desires even begin to look a different shade than His desires? How do we restore those colors and slate to walking and stepping in Gods time? We've never been in control of it all so why do we desire or think that we actually are?

Let's be honest, my own personal will power was completely intimidated and skeptical about this Washington trip, so much so that it almost didn't happen. So much of me questioned my own ability to "convince" people to come on board but that's a true, real good mindset/ heart to have because I literally can't do it. No one would be convinced if it was just me with the motive but see God has the motive. To use me as His vessel and use me to invite, encourage and call those He needs to be apart of it all. Apart of the architecture that is this area of the kingdom building.

Each of us are called specifically because He has made us with these things to be accomplished and fulfilled in mind. He created each of us with the intricate detail of His timing and will for each of us to accomplish these things for His good.

Past and Present

7 But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of knowing Christ. 8 What is more, I consider everything a loss  because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them Rubbish, that I may Gain Christ 9 and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ- the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. 10 I want to know Christ- yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, 11 and so, somehow, attaining to the resurrection from the dead." Philippians 3: 7-11

Who are we when we sit in the midst of our own created comforts? How does it forcibly mess with our attempt to mess with Gods will for us? Why would we ever want to mess with Gods will for us? Better yet why would we ever settle for less?
I have realized and spoken of discomfort in my walk with the Lord. It is where God has called me. Within this continued discomfort I seek and find more comfort in Him and His plan for me rather than the low expectations I seek for myself. Clearly He has already led me to far higher expectations for myself than I ever would have imagined. Living a California dream in the Redwood forest at 28. This looks nothing like what I imagined 28 would be like... It's better.

3 I thank my God every time I remember you. 4 In all my prayers for all of you I always pray with joy 5 because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, 6 being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."- Philippians 1:3-6 NIV

Just like the expectations I imagined for this trip to Washington were so small compared to what He actually did there. I had the opportunity to meet and visit with incredible people seeking direction and being content in where they are currently in Gods will for them., seeing the blessings unfold on the daily.

Support raising full time can be extremely intimidating or daunting. Typical Thought process seems selfish but that is a tactic that strays us away from reaching out into communities to further connect and allow God to use others as vessels to help to bless therefore seeing in all of this, continually, the only one that can be given credit, is God. Even in the struggle God does not leave our side for a moment. Instead, he intercedes to move the conversation forward such as my friend John did in Samammish, WA

While pouring out this last year of my life and the direction it all has brought me to point in, our conversation went quiet in between other topics of catching up. As I struggled with my timing, God prompted His timing and John asked me how he and his wife could support me. I'm pretty sure my jaw dropped slightly. "The Ask" was asked to me. God is so good in his perseverance and encouragement that He plants in each of us. Pointers in love from others constructive  criticism that continues this growth process and continual discovery of who God is unfolding from the debris that are our doubts, flaws and brokenness. Because of Gods will and His continued faithfulness in revealing His desires within others my "Stellar Support Team" has grown in joyful noise and size. Each and every family member on our team has something very specific to teach and learn. I am so excited to see where this next year takes all of us.

I can't thank you enough. I feel like I can't thank God enough for you as this journey continues.

"26 Brothers and Sister, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. 27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 God chose the lowly things of this world and despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are, 29 so that no one may boast before him. 30 It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. 31 Therefore, as it is written:"Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord." -1 Corinthians 1:26-31

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